‘I’ve never loved you before’ breakups. Heh.
But thanks for the reminder. I’m a man.
hey you, why so hostile? why so scared, why so defensive? i’m not a monster, y’know. yeah i may be broken and depressed and sad right now, but deep down inside, i’m still that same awesome guy that came up with ‘stupidify’.
give me time to get back up on my feet. you leaving me was the biggest blow in my life. be understanding leh.
why so selfish, why so negative, why give up on love?
say all you want, i’ll prove to you my worth some day.
because never is a promise meant to be broken, and as much as you are trying hard to forget our past and live a new lie, i am gonna do the opposite. the memory is all i have left, and i hate that you make the only thing left in my life fake as well. i refuse to believe. i hold on to hope, i hold on to love. and i will sink with this ship if i have to.
go ahead, walk out of my life. but if you decide to come back, because you realise no other guy out there can love you like i do, i’ll welcome you back. because i have nothing against you. i am not angry, i am not disappointed.
i just…
hi.
so today i found out you actually read this. cool.
funny,
it didn’t hurt that you were getting into someone else’s car.
it didn’t hurt that you didn’t wanna talk to me.
it didn’t hurt that you didn’t wanna go buy stuff for the bbq with me.
it hurt when i saw you with all those bruises on your legs.
maybe after today, we will never talk to each other ever again.
sucks, but if that’s what you want, then that’s what i gotta give to you.
but never tell me to stop loving you.
because that’s all i have left.
my hope dangles on a string.
i will be strong again some day.
i will make you want me back, when you realise no one can love you as much as i can and want to. i will make you want me back, when you realise no one will do the things for you that i do.
for now, i wish you all the best in your life.
as i try to not go crazy.
crazy. i’m going crazy. do you know what it feels like when you wanna tear your face open, when you cry and you gag and try to shout but not a single word comes out? do you know what it feels like to see your face when i close my eyes? i fear sleeping, i fear being awake. it’s like that westlife song.
i hate that i love you. and i love you nonetheless.
In our fast paced lives, we made several mistakes, you and I. You never told me what you wanted and I… just went on assuming things.
Today I learnt that you feel I’m not the one you’re to marry. But why! In my defence, I know where I screwed up. I know I wasn’t perfect, especially the past few months. But please give me a chance, I promise I won’t disappoint. I will be all you want and more.
We can take baby steps, and go from there. You will never find anyone else who will love you like I do, and will do anything for you like I can.
think.
as eager and determined as you are to give up, have you stopped to think why i choose to fight on?
No, I won’t give up. Maybe you’ll understand why I still believe some day. It’s not that I don’t respect your decision. No. It’s because I still believe this is not the end. Hate me all you want for now, but I promise you this: we were meant to be. We will be back again some day.
